I know life is sometimes a crap.. I know everything turns around is a messy stinky bullshit.. I know that I will never have a chance to have a sex with some beauty :) .. Well those are the hard to believe facts of life..

but you know what? nothing is easy.. the word "easy" is not valid in the lives of grown ups..

good point of view.. but there are two sides of medallion.. the other side you wonder?? well..

one day I will stand by seaside.. my feet are digged in the sand. the waves will flush the sand and uncover my feet.. life is something like that I guess..

there are endless abysses that I will go to the bottom.. but like the insistent waves something will uncover my faults and feelings.. it will take me out of abyss again.. for infinite numbers of time this will happen..

maybe you call it luck.. but I call it eternal sunshine of spotless mind..

Just wanted to share with someone..

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I think I am a lucky guy.. Long ago I expressed my feelings here.. It has been almost a year.. Things changed.. I quit my job.. Decided to continue my education..

Now I am in Berlin.. Capital of Germany.. When I think of it, I even could not believe myself.. Good performance.. Anyway.. I feel living now.. There are some problems tough.. But isn't it life itself?

It has been more than 4 months since I came here.. Everyday learning new things not only in university but also here in Berlin too..

I understood that sometimes I am pushing it too hard. But life is not so hard as it seems.. Only thing makes it hard is exaggeration of self feelings..

I am testing my self dependency here.. And first results are good:) I can survive myself!! It is related with doing one thing from heart, and believing it tough.. It is like a theory of Pinnochio: "If you fake the funk, your nose will grow." But if you try not to be fake, your flavour becomes tasty and sharp..